I never want to be like you

Oh fyi the title of this post is directed to my mom. We just got into a fight and I dont really wanna talk about it. As much as I love her, I never never ever want to grow up to be like the egoistic, have-it-my-way, domineering person that she is (most of the time).

Anyway to break the cycle of my sleepless nights I finally got a 12 hour sleep ytd! Haha I took an evening nap at 8pm in the hope of waking up at 11 to study for my sat but ended up waking up to a bright morning sun haha. Anyway here are a HELLL lot of pictures from the past few days.


Prom
Well prom wasnt exactly fun haha but it was alright-ish i guess. Stayed over tiff's hotel room at mandarin where we had a lot of fun dressing up and even got a strange prank call from mutusammy curry at 4am haha lol.

Sue maine, jacq, jasmine

My class girls! Why am I the only girl haha
Jess, Joseph, Isaac, Jasmine, Pei qi

Darien and Lionel

Hahaha ermz this is my brother

This is the man who gives me detention, suspension and still dares to put his arms around my waist hahah. I'll miss you michael tan... NOT

DXO

Post prom was quite fun if I minus the part where I messed up the tickets (well actually they just disappeared, Im sure things disappear just like that) and almost lost my wallet. Thanks winson and moses for being so nice and helpful. And thanks tiff anne and steffi for being so understanding :)

Lace Jess Ness Audrey

Isaac the bouncer haha


Mambo at zouk

Haha mambo was quite fun because we ended up talking to men twice our age and it was so funny lol. Then everyone kept fighting for lychees so they kept ordering lychee martinis and ronny willingly ate the lychees that ness and ambrose took out from their mouths haha eww. Erm oh we witness Hussein kissing ambrose and ronny hahha but I shall keep the picture to myself hahaha.

Haha that's Ness's "papa" on your extreme right

Ambrose Jamie and audrey

Okay Im going to study my sat now..which is like tomorrow. Goddd I feel so unprepared and scared :( Anw Im now alone at home cause everyone went to the IT fair and I wasnt allowed to go coz my parents want me to study. Erm anyway I dont really care what laptop they get me coz Im ok with any well-functioning computer haha. Byebyezz

I woke up with a fucking bad stomach ache, or gastric pain or whatever the hell you call it. It was like someone tie a rope around my tummy. I didnt know what to do cause it's a weird kind of pain so i figured it was gastric because I drank on an empty stomach last night. I just forced myself to eat a bowl of instant noodles (I havent eaten instant noodles in a year) and I cried like a stupid kid while eating coz .......Im not even hungry!!!!! and it's so bloody painful. Haha but hmm smart move coz I felt better after that, haha so much for crying.

ZZZ I slept 3 hours today and 3 hours yesterday because I can never wake up past 9am no matter how late I sleep. Anyway I had very eventful past few days, I'll upload pictures and blog about it tonight! Meanwhile I shall erm try to sleep, go for sushi and sleep the rest of my day off (hopefully my sleeping mission is successful, Im so sleep deprived)

The good times

Good mooorrning I bet everyone is still sleeping, I hate being such an early bird haha.I havent been updating ever since As. Im lovin my everydays haha (Im so easily contented what) Im just so glad exam's over! So it's been like 4 days ever since the end of As but so far Im spending more than I've spent the entire month of Sept and Oct (hahaha maybe because my expenses those months only consist of food and coffee bean lattes) but STILLL I need to sloww down on the spending before my account hits double digit HAha. Besides, I cant wait for shopping in HK, so i better stop buying more random stuff here.

Anyway prison break is sooooooo awesome. It's the only show in the world that I can watch 7 hours non stop without the slightest feeling of boredom. And due to my over enthusiasm, I've run out of episodes to watch. I watched 8 episodes in one day and now Im on par with the US episodes. That means that the next ep is only coming out in Jan! Oh nooooo that's one month of anxiety, agony, misery, .................haha ok stop.

Okay on a very serious note, I realized that Im such a fickle minded moron. The other day I spent like hours doing my UC application and after that I realized, damn I dont wanna go to UC. Haha clapclap I could have used those time to do better stuff. Haha anyway ytd morning I went back to crescent to get my transcripts and certs stamped haha I miss taking 111 and 92 which comes once every 24 hours. And I'll have to go back to cj one of these days too to do the same..siann



Merry Christmas Singapore, from Tiff and I haha
I still feel so pphhaatz now :( I've been hitting the gym the past 3 days. Haha u know the only thing I note when I run is not the distance, not the time, but the calories only. Im going to ikea with my mom and sis aft lunch then rachel's birthday party at night.....And for now it's time to hit the gym! Happy sleeping lazy pigs

Dark blue dark blue

I went shopping with suemaine on Saturday and we ended up buying quite a lot of stuff haha. Im v happy with the stuff I bought haha thanks suemaine for teaching me to wwaaaiit and be patient (haha coz I always buy on impulse and ended up buying things that I dont really like) Went over to my house for facial mask session haha which got us laughing ourselves silly for like a solid 10 minutes haha! Walked over to andrew's for BBQ after that and the night ended with me bringing 20 pieces of chicken wings home haha coz everyone refused to bring them home.



Church as usual today, dim sum and then I got myself another dress from zara. Haha it's like bright red, brighter than the sun haha..(dont worry Im not gonna wear it to prom) Anyway Ive been getting really bad headaches these past few days and according to my dad maybe its the 'non-studying disease' uhuhhhh now even my parents think Im a n.e.r.d. And talking about studying, exam is errr not over yet haha but it sure feels like it. I bet my whole house thinks Alevels is over and I hope I'll remember to wake up on tuesday morning for my physics paper.



Every day, God gives us the sun--and also one moment in which we have the ability to change everything that makes us unhappy. Every day, we try to pretend that we haven't perceived that moment, that it doesn't exist--that today is the same as yesterday and will be the same as tomorrow. -Paulo Coelho

I havent been reading in months and Ive been wanting to read a few more of Coelho's books and Richard Dawkin's God Delusion. I have 3 seasons of friends, prison break season 3, gossip girls.... so many things to read/watch hawhaw

Plus sized

Im like sooo upset/irritated about erm my weight haha. Sometimes I wish Im anorexic or bulimic or both hahaha but I know that will never happen. I should google 'how to lose 5kg in one week' now :(

I just joined facebook and Im like so confused hahahaha. Im such a dumbass. Anyway exam's kinda over, 2 more MCQ papers which I dont think I'll study for (not because Im confident but Im just too tired) Oh caught stardust today and I thought it was awesome. I thought Im an action-movie kinda person but looks like im a sucker for fairy tales now hahah.

Ok Im gonna figure my way through facebk haha

One hundred and two years old

This year I wish that I'll be happy with whatever I have/gonna have. To think about it, birthday wishes are essentially quite pointless. After all, every moment we are always wishing for something. Ask today, God gives tomorrow and then we'll start asking again the next day. If I am never gonna be satisfied with what I have, at least I hope I can be grateful with what Im blessed with. For we can have nothing but still be happy or we can have everything in the world but still feel empty.

Thank you everyone who msg/called/emailed. It sucks to have birthday smacked right in the middle of exams but at least I made the best out of what i can. I really appreciate those who rmbed despite of all the exams and other shitzz :) Thanks aa who called at 3am while i was barely half awake, we have so much to catch up and I miss you guys so so much. Haha and for pyschoing me into going to usc until 430am

Right now I feel so helpless and hopeless because the past few days just didnt feel right at all. It feels like post-exam and yet I know Im only halfway through. I dont know how why how why but i seriously cannot cannot study anymore. one more week :'( till this big bad nightmare is over. I swear Ive never felt more burnt out in my life before, everytime I open my book i feel like crying........................ No one should have to go through exams that stretch for 3 weeks, it's like beyond human's capability to concentrate for that long.

The shrillest highs and the lowest lows

Hi it's 3am and Im wide awake. Im so annoyed with myself coz I cant seem to do anything associated with econs. Not that I hate it, I'm actually starting to like it but I get so sleepy and easily distracted when I read econs. Haa all I did the whole day was 2 chapters of econs (if u consider unemployment and inflation as two chapters haha) and I got home after dinner feeling irritated so I decide to practice sat. Not that I feel any better after that because doing comprehensions and memorizing vocabs are so agonizing. I tried to to rmb 50 today, I learnt that that coiffure means hairstyle hahaha so random. Dont worry 2950 words more to go (I may as well memorize the whole dictionary right)

Anyway during lunch today suemaine and I were very amused over someone who was bloody serious about his plan to build a dynasty in the mountains of India.. hahaha I think I laughed until I cried... hahaha

Ok my mom just got back a few hours ago and she cried while talking about my grandfather so I didnt know how to react coz I dont want to cry either, like how I cried when I talked to him last week over the phone...sigh i realized I havent gone back in almost two years which is quite crazy considering I used to go back 4 times a year. I really miss a lot of people :(

Im turning eighteen in abt 2 to 3 days time (haha i dont keep track of dates) and I'm not really excited about it. For the first time in a few years Im not planning on any celebration and Im not even slightly upset about it hahah.

Okk since Im so bored now i'll think of what I wanna do after As
1) Take driving lessons
2) shop shop shoooooooop!
3) go back to indo
4) find a prom dress
5) run 4km everyday and go on a diet hahahaha
6) find woffles wu to do plastic surgery (HAHAHA coz my dad thinks my complexion is almost as bad as his and he told me that even plastic surgery cannot save me)
7) throw my books and notes and everything else
8) find a work ( i think my over excited mom is getting me an interview with i-dont-know-who and wants me to go for dinner with them. Im 18 i want to do a fun job (like be a salesperson at LV and chanel hahaha or like scoop ice cream at hagen daaz) and not be stuck in a bank/office. sometimes I dont know if im really lucky or really unlucky)
9) Watch prison break season 3 which started like last month already! I bet they're at least at 7th episode now..... I have to hurry
10) Errr ya last but not least write my personal statements, complete my applications and pray that I'll get accepted.

Okay tomorrow it'll be econs, me and james blunt at coffee bean hahahaha bye.

Caught in between all you wish for and all you need

Hiiii guess who's back writing again! This is a sign of boredom and my dire need to rant and complain haha. Well I guess Im just too bored, too sick of studying and yet too guilty to go out (plus I dont think anyone would wanna go out anyway). Talking about life, I've pretty much lost my life for the past one month or so haha (it's like a routine cycle of school, home and holland v)So other than occassional lunch and dinners, I haven't really been spending time out. Shopping and movies sound so foreign to me hahaha time to get some life back asap!

Oh and Im making this blog known to everyone so that we can all keep each other updated cause I think after this we'll all be too caught up with our own stuff to catch up w each other haha (that's even if I'll still be in sg)

Anw four papers down! I cant believe Im halfway through As already haha. The thought of finally leaving JC is comforting, relieving but really scary and kinda sad too. Haha coz as much as I like to complain about school, these are the years that I'll miss. Like what they say, you'll never treasure what you have until you lose them..haha oh wells

On a very ....random note, I shouldnt really be excited about ending As because I have a million and one things to do. Im retaking my SAT1 in dec and I really have to do well this time cause it's my laaaast and only chance. Thank God I'm done with sat2! Then I still have tonnes of applications and essays (really really hate hate hate them) to complete before I leave for shanghai, hk and some godforsaken parts of china hahaha. Guess what, Im applying to UCSD, USC (stef bellaa grid I'm cming), Uwashington (I have mel) Umichigan (i have nobody haha) Boston college (ness?) oh and Wisconsin Madison too........ And somehow Umich seems to be on my top list, like hellooo chicago hahaha.

OKayyz Im gonna take a nap and do some math later. Maths tomorrow and a solid one week break beforee eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeecons which I haven't touch ever since the first week of hols. God bless me. Mom's coming back tmr! byebye