OUT OF GAZZZ

I am soooo worn out. I feel a fever coming down and my stomach is just hell-ish as usual. I never remembered Indo to be this hectic, in fact I remembered my stays in Indo to be kinda boring. This time, I'm only home to sleep and watch DVDs late in the night. Not that Im complaining, I love being occupied with stuff, but this whole thing is taking its toll on me. I have a family phototaking this Sat as this gonna be the first time in 10 yrs ago that we have the whole widyatmadja family here in jakarta. My cousins from US are back for a week and my sister is coming back for the weekend to take photo. That reminds me, I dont have a back up plan if I dont fit into my dress anymore :'(

Haha I have a hell lot of photos actually but I didnt bring my USB cable here. I've accomplished a lot of things here; for instance, completed season 1 of gossip girl and season 4 of the OC, ate enough doughnuts to actually start getting sick of them, mastered the art of talking to myself because my driver never respond to anything I said, been 5 meters away from a shooting, almost drove my car into a pavement, sneaked out of stef's house and then had one of the scariest highway ride of my life (hahaha stef, your sister). Oh and I actually learn to sleep before 12 am on some days, something that I can never do in singapore. Of course the most wonderful part here is that I get to meet people whom I seldom see. Starting from all my friends from us and aussie, to my relatives in indo and now even my cousins from US.

My sis is getting back her Os tomorrow and that means we're getting back our As in 2 weeks time. It's been so long since I had to face the fear of getting back results that I almost forget how troubled and bloody hell scared I always am during these days. On a random note, I kinda miss Singapore.

Ok ok gtg watch heroes

Can't find the right words

Hi again! I've been so so so tired lately. Im busy with I dont even know what but Im barely even at home. It's like I never really had anything planned out for the day but there's just always things to do, places to go to, people to meet, dinners to go to ......... and sometimes I dont even know these people Im meeting.

Anyway let's talk about drivinggggg. I actually think driving is fun hahaha but only when Im driving with the instructors because they let me drive busy roads where big buses, motorcycles and cars drive like it's their grandfather's road. My mom told me to practice driving around my housing complex with my chauffeur, but it's like driving a toy car because he only lets me drive in suuuper quiet road and he gets terrified at the sight of ONE car, which of course makes me scared and nervous too in the end hahaha. So whenever there's car or road humps it'll be like "break break break ............... and then my engine went dead and I have to restart again hahahahaha.

Im working on getting me a lifetime membership at fitness first hahahaha and I bet after a month I'll stop going. Ok maybe a week.

INDO SO FAR..........

Well I'm enjoying myself here actually, but disastrous things have occurred and will continue to occur. See, due to my very last minute packing (i took like barely 10 minutes to pack), I forgot to bring so many clothes that I like and ended bringing some random shit that I wont even wear. Moving on to the most disastrous part......... WEIGHT GAIN. I eat 24/7 here. I havent gone back for 2 years so obviously I had gazillion food cravings, can't blame me right? But seriously, Im disgustingly phat now I think I need to start popping diet pills or drink slimming tea. My treadmill isnt even working suddenly, Im fated to be obeseeeeeeeeeeeeee. Okok I realize Im not up for a proper post, I'll blog about indo soon after I buy XXXXXL maternity clothings for myself.

Dear God,

How can I finish this crap in 30 hours
Why is life so hard on me
Why are my essays never ending
Why is my mom getting increasingly unbearable
Why is dieting so difficult
Why can't I stop eating chocolates at night
Why can't I sleep at night
Why do I feel so lonely
Why you
Why is time passing so fast
Why am I not special
Why do I find myself chasing for things that are out of my league
Why am I even crying ??!

Im leaving Singapore in 30 hours time and I hope Indo will treat me better than thizzzz.

Heart shaped gun

So obviously the plan about going to starbucks to do my essay failed miserably, instead I went to visit wenxi and my sister at work then did my eyebrows. I tried to take an evening nap but again, failed miserably haha. Then I went for a bbq which i left shortly after I arrived haha. That's how my lame day goes

Mambo on Wednesday

PDA alert! haha

I had dinner at Dan Ryan's with aa and irien on thurs. It's been so long since I last ate there! Then we went to clarke quay for dessert and drinks (no dessert in the end), but ended up going to the arena because it was ladies night and it's free entry free flow hahaha cheapoz. It's 12.40 Im not sleeping until I get my USC essay done.

I've been spending 0.0000001 hour at home, thus abandoning my applications. Two down, three more to go and I need to finish them before I go back to Indo in 5 days. STRESSED. Maybe I should go down to starbucks myself and start on some constructive work haha. By the way, Im a working girl now and Im doing a pretty hardcore, physically demanding job :O hahaha any guess? So far I've worked 3 times, probably doing another 2 and then I'll quit.

The goodbyes of 2007

I'm still thinking if I really meant what I said about a fulfilling 2007, Im so fickle minded. Anw I spent my last hours of 2007 with my family and a few family friends. We had dinner, move on for some dessert and drinks before we headed down to esplanade to watch the fireworks.


me, julia, mom, mom's favourite aunt, priscy, jasonFor a short wrap up, I wanna say that 2007 had been a strangely special year to me. I've had good and bad moments but one thing Im certain of; this year is far from being a forgettable one. Okay if I had to pick one thing that stands out the most from 07, that will probably be the stress hahaha. It's amusing when I look back at how ridiculously paranoid I was before every major exam, the many times I cried because I was scared/stressed and the gratuitous pressure I put on myself. Haha oh well.... at least I can safely bid goodbye to night study in school and coffee bean days! Now I just have to start earning money and losing weight.

I also think Ive made some really good friends but also drifted apart from some. Ive seen people change, people leave, people lie, people...everything? haaha no lah im not so experienced. Oh yes I shall rmb this year as the year I had the most difficulty sleeping. Okay happy new year 08, I hope everyone has a better year ahead. And for schoolers, happy going back to school!