Days like this should never end

As the title suggests, I had one of the best days ever since .....school starts. Im staying over at my aunt's for thanksgiving. Getting away from school to a more 'homely' setting is just what I really need right now. It feels soooo good to finally sleep on a big bed with tonnes of pillows and thick comforter to snuggle up in (not confined to a tiny bedroom with a big-enough-to-fit-my-body bed), not having to care about schoolwork (although i have tonnes of assignment due next week haha but screw that!), enjoying the cooler air and breeze... Hahah it just feels so good to be 'home'.

So today we went to my grandma ..wait, grandaunt's house at claremont. Had a thanksgiving dinner (indo style hahaha) with 20 of my aunts, uncles and cousins. Prepared dinner, played silly games, chilling with wine and christmas songs, listening to my small cousins playing the piano, violin and singing songs haha.. They even baked a surprise birthday cake for me (even though my bday was 2 weeks ago haha) ..Ahhh what an awesome night, this is the closest Ive been to feeling home ever since I left singapore.

Haha Im so full and sleepy but I dont want to waste my short holiday so I'll stay up to watch house and maybe read a book hehe. Im worried for finals and my project/assignments due next week but for now Im gonna get them off my mind hehe..

Good night!!!

Birthday ?

Haha it's so weird because it's not even my birthday yet but Im getting birthday wishes already. I wish I had my family and singapore friends here with me right now. It's 2am to midnight and Im going to celebrate being 19 with my math and chem books. I just ended my exam reviews at 9.30pm on SUNDAY, math exam tomorrow, lab and project+presentation on Tue and chem exam on Wed. I dont know how Im going to live the next three days so dont even ask me abt birthday celebration coz I dont care!! I just wanna survive the next three days :(

And as for my birthday wish ... LOSE 7KG IN 1 MONTH haha ok lah 5KG back to my normal weight pretty please. But looking at how I just consumed one tub of mint chocolate chip ice cream, my birthday wish is gonna reverse itself to gaining 5kg instead.

Urgghhh this is going nowhere! Haha im old and fat and fat and fat and ............PHAT!

And now I realize,

We all have choices, but we never know if we're making a right choice. All we know is that it is the best option that we have right now, the choice that helps us go through another day, the choice that kept us going. All we have is that leap of faith- the one thing we hold on to when everything seems so uncertain. Everyone makes bad choices at some point, and now that we are in it, dont look back with regrets. Have faith that the next choice is gonna make all this better again and move on. After all, life is all about choices after choices, right ? And now I know that hope and faith are the most important things we could ever have. What would life be without hope ?

This goes out to everyone who feels like the world is turning its back on them, dont despair and dont ever feel hopeless. There's always a light at the end of the tunnel, you just have to believe and have faith. God will never put you through a test that you cant pass. There's always answers if you search hard enough. You're not born into this world just to give up, so dont ever do.

THESE NIGHT ARE WAAAAAYYY TOO LONG!

Half of my days are spent in pitch darkness (9am-5pm: day, 5pm-1am:dark) Omgz it's only been barely a week and Im hating this already, i wonder how I'll survive the next 4 months or so. At 9pm, i felt that Ive gone through 4 hours of darkness and my body is telling me that I should be going to bed soon. Haha this sucks, the season is making me lazy and sleepy and inactive. Ok it's 10pm and im sleepy, i should go to the gym soon (haha my gym time here is 10pm-12am..however weird that is

Hi November

I know this might be the 1000th times Im saying this (at least to myself), but I cant believe it's November already! That means that I'm 3/4 way through my semester, one more month to thanksgiving and finals then Im freaking done with school!!! I can't wait

I know nobody will disagree with me on this, uni is a bitch. Seriously, I am shocked and at the same time I feel cheated for being made to believe/think that college life will be a breeze. Honestly, I dont even remember being this busy in JC (uhm other than exam period of course). There were times I really just want OUTTTT; go back to sing and lead my pointless life of slacking, watching dvds, yoga, spending money .... that will be the best best gift anyone can get me right now.

Moving on to a non school-is-sucha-bitch note, life has been pretty fun in here. Well, I quit my sorority a few weeks ago because I just couldnt handle getting home past midnight everyday and doing my work till 4am just to get up again at 9 for a full 9-4pm day in school then back to sorority stuff till midnight again. That's how insane it was. Well things have been better after I quit; I have more time for myself, more time to spend with my own friends, more time to do my work, more time to work out hahaha.

Hmmmm I dont know what else to say, I dont really feel like blogging about details just coz I havent been blogging for a long time and I dont know where to start. I really miss everyone in singapore, I wish I could drive here and lastly, I cant believe im turning 19 in a weeks time. I can still remember my last birthday where I had dinner with my family at dempsey and had to rush back home after that to study for Alevels hahahaha oh wellz good ol days. Not really in the celebrating mood this year, so I might just celebrate by wathing gossip girl since it's gonna fall on a Monday anyway. Hehe bye nowwwww it's 3am and Im not even sleepy